I believe that I was born highly sensitive. My mom thinks it has something to do with the fact I was born premature, developed jaundice and had to be put under lights with little human touch for the first few days of my life. While I don't know if that's true or not, I do always remember being highly sensitive and feeling different.
For the longest time after I discovered that I deal with anxiety, I thought that's all it was. It was the devil anxiety who had been on my back for so long that made me feel stressed and overwhelmed easily. It wasn't until I discovered the term highly sensitive person that I started to look back and know that's where some of my highs and lows came from.
I was always called "too sensitive" by teachers and family members. I feared getting in trouble (I remember crying because I forgot my homework ONCE in 5th grade). I cried a lot in school and couldn't explain why. Often, I would come up with strange reasons why I was crying because the real reason seemed sillier. I never wanted to hurt anyone's feelings. I'd get upset when people raised their voices. I was always moved to tears by a good movie or book and would spend hours wrapped in novels. I always found school and other public places too overwhelming at times. I distinctly remember the feeling of being dizzy when walking in the crowds at my high school and feeling like the lights and the noise and the people were "too much"... yet everyone else seemed to be coping just fine.
As I entered by twenties, I started to realize more about my anxiety and more about being an introvert. I don't remember the exact age or moments when I started to learn about being highly sensitive, but I remember feeling at ease. I was different, but it wasn't bad. There wasn't anything wrong with me. Other people are just like me.
This year, as I've been diving even deeper into personal development, I started to realize that my calling is to help others. After a particularly hard couple of days, I realized that being highly sensitive is a big part of my life and who I am, but it can be tough. I didn't see much offered for highly sensitive people to help them thrive. So, I started writing ideas and developed my 21-day email course and started connecting with fellow HSPs on social media. I want to help HSP connect with others and start to heal their relationships with themselves, learn how to embrace their true selves and deal with any challenges that come their way.
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